Growing Up is Scary and that's OK!

I feel like im either too young or too old...I have all these hopes and dreams and things I want to accomplish, but when the times comes to do them...I dont. A part of me thinks its because i'm scared. I'm scared to work for something I want, saving money to do the things I want to do because maybe then I will officially not be a kid anymore.

Sometimes I feel that if I stay where I am in my life that I can hold on to being a kid a little longer. I'm scared that once I make that plunge and start getting down to business i'll become an adult, but i'm coming to realize that I cant keep doing what im doing and I cant stay where im at at any longer. I'm ready to move forward in my life, go into the next chapter. It seemed so much easier growing up and in High School when I would think of all the things I wanted to do, places to see, dreams I wanted to follow, now the time is here to start actually doing them and Im scared. But what im even more scared of is not doing them and looking back with regret.

I'm realizing that growing up is a scary, amazing, confusing time. You leave your comfort place, your opinions can make a difference, and your actions have consequences. I feel like my whole life I've wanted to be a certain age, but then when I would get to that age I would automatically want to get to the next one lol....turning 10 so I could be double digits, turning 13 so I could be a teenager, turning 16 so I could drive, turning 18 so I could be called "legally" be an adult and buy scratchers lol….turn 20 so i'm no longer in my teens…then the big 21 for obvious reason…now I'm 23 and I find myself wanting to stay here for awhile lol

I'm excited to be in my 20s. There is so many things I want to do and experience and my 20's I feel like is the time to do because I have the least responsibility right now. I'm excited that I'm getting to the age where I can start doing the things that I've always wanted to do...some traveling....working on my modeling and acting....and of course my #1 dream moving to LA.  I cant believe the time is now and I have the power to make my dreams into reality! :)

I remember hearing in my acting class "being scared or nervous is a feeling of being alive" and it's soooo true...being scared/nervous doesn't mean the thing your worried about is bad, its just a feeling and trust me I know how fast feelings can change...one minute I feel like I have everything together and the next I feel like the world is going to end...."feelings" change (the good and the bad)...I need to rememver and keep telling myself its OKAY to feel nervous, scared, and worried, because those feelings could easily change into exictment, a great memory, or a peace of mind.

Remember if you find yourself wishing ahead whether it be a certain age, a certain date, or event, etc. take a step back and tell yourself it will be here sooner then we think...and getting to that place doesn't ensure happiness because most of the time when we get what we have been waiting for...then we are on wishing for the next thing to come (I think we've all been a little guilty of doing that at one time or another)..so remember that true happiness is within and you have the power to feel good about yourself and go after your dreams no matter what age, or time you are at in your life! Take each day and cherish because sometimes the greatest memories are happening when we least expect it!

Here is one of my favorite sayings...

"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails.

Explore. Dream. Discover - Mark Twain"